College Living: Is It Right For Me?

                So as of December 2014 I started seriously thinking about what I wanted to do with my life. Did I want to work for an online media company, did I want to be a cosmetologist or did I feel it in me to pursue my passion for dog grooming? Then it occurred to me that I had absolutely no idea what I wanted to do. I guess I should give you a little back story.

                When I was a senior in high school I though I had my life planned out. I was going to skip college find a job near my home town and work until I had enough money to move to California, where I would then follow my dreams of becoming a renowned dog groomer. I would have my cute little shop in a well known part of town, where a vast array of people would bring there pets to be primed, primped and polished, to the best animal they could be. Unfortunately that dream was crushed when my mother told me that I would be going to college. So at this point in the school year, (April) I said "Oh my god! What am I going to do?! I've only got a few months to find a school, apply and hopefully get accepted!" So I frantically thought of ideas of what I should do, and finally came to the decision of Northern Oklahoma College. I of course applied and got in, then months later packed up and moved away to Stillwater. 

                Just a few weeks in I could tell that college was not for me. I have extreme test anxiety and every piece of knowledge I have seems to fall out of my brain like a cut bag of flour. So of course my test anxiety meant that I would need intermediate schooling before I could start 'real college'. An entire semester behind and still not doing well, I hated my life. I get the fact that college is an important undertaking for many people, but I just had the gut feeling that I didn't belong. I decided to give it some time and maybe I would like it, so I finished my first year and started my second and the feeling never went away. So here I am a college student faced with a decision, stop college and begin paying for almost two years of nothing, or continue and fall further into a state of depression.

                Over a month later I have finally decided that I am going to start living for myself! I made the big decision to drop out of college and pursue Cosmetology school, and maybe even start some blogging along my way. Who knows? I might even throw in some YouTube videos here and there. So hears to 2015, and the year I start truly enjoying myself!

Talk to you soon,

Tyler